Monday, January 10, 2011

Monday Madness

I hate mondays to be honest.
I get up and go to school to struggle through my day terrified of the swarms of people and trying to learn what I can.
I went to my boyfriends today after school and made sure to stay out late enough for my mom to go to bed and now I'm tired but anything is better than my mother.
Me and my boyfriend went to the mall to wonder then went back to his place to watch TV and sit with his mom. I wish I had a mom like his growing up and even now, she is the most amazing person I have ever met.
My emotions are going nuts and I'm cutting alot more but not as much as I use to when I was 10-13. I want to scream out but I want to keep it to myself because I'm ashamed. But I need to do it. Fail.
However not eating is coming alot easier to me lately for no apparent reason of course depression might be helping.


  1. i dislike my mother as well, but if i stayed out or that long she would flip a fucking shit and be even more annoying. anyways, good luck, and feel better, love.


  2. I totally feel the same way about the whole emotions screaming out thing.
    And your so lucky its easier for you to diet!

    Stay strong, your not alone.

    Take care xxx