Monday, January 10, 2011
I hate mondays to be honest.
I get up and go to school to struggle through my day terrified of the swarms of people and trying to learn what I can.
I went to my boyfriends today after school and made sure to stay out late enough for my mom to go to bed and now I'm tired but anything is better than my mother.
Me and my boyfriend went to the mall to wonder then went back to his place to watch TV and sit with his mom. I wish I had a mom like his growing up and even now, she is the most amazing person I have ever met.
My emotions are going nuts and I'm cutting alot more but not as much as I use to when I was 10-13. I want to scream out but I want to keep it to myself because I'm ashamed. But I need to do it. Fail.
However not eating is coming alot easier to me lately for no apparent reason of course depression might be helping.