Monday, November 1, 2010

Depression.

I didn't get out of bed until 2pm today. I didn't go to school. I have homework to do, which I'm doing now and its so stupid. I don't think I'm going to get into my university program.
I cut myself last night after the night I had, I can't get happy and im spiralling out of control. I want so much to reach out but there seems to be no one there that can help, I don't know if I even what to let go of my habits. Its who I am its who I've always been.
Tomorrow I will go to school, I must, besides I've been cutting since I was 11 and no ones ever noticed, I have mad hiding skills.

1 comment:

  1. Aw :( That confused feeling of reaching out or not...
    Well I can only say that you should do what's best for you.
    Do you want to stop cutting? I can say it's very hard to keep it away, but if you do it helps you feel so strong!

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