I cut and I cut deep, I'm ok but not emotionally, I've taken today and tomorrow off of school. I broke my fast with something small, soup with some noodles. I can't really eat anything. I went from my newly gained 125 to 122. I feel so fat and discusting I just hate myself so much and I'm so depressed. I didn't get out of bed today until 5pm.
Depression won't let me move
it wont let me live
it makes me sleep or keeps me away
it makes everyone hate me and me hated everyone
it wont let me win
My mother today was like "your so stupid and nasty I can't believe I kept you, you can't do anything properly and then asked are you being bullied and I'm like no!! and I'm not.
She made me so angry.