Sunday, October 31, 2010

Happy Halloween?

Happy Halloween
I handed out candy.
I got informed my mom can afford printer ink but she can afford alchohol and smokes and what she wants but i can't get things i need for school. She would be having problems at work if she layed off the drink. I'm trying to find a job buts its hard.
I can't stand things any longer. I want to be out of this place.
University is starting to scare me because I don't know if I'm good enough!
God I hate life.
I'm not going to school tomorrow, I have projects and things to study for that I need to do.
By the way I lost 4 pounds and obviously I'm still a fat worthless person.
Dear life I hate you
Dear mother stop drinking and beating
Dear everyone I'm sorry I cause so much problems.


  1. Awwwh I'm sorry you're going through this. My stepdad was a drunk and druggie. He would always beat the shit out of me and my siblings on almost a daily basis, if he wasn't coming down from his high from Coke, then he was a raging drunk. Have confidence that you'll make to your University. Because when you're out, you're done. You'll be on your own and starting your life. Congratulations on loosing four pounds! You're doing great :) (((((((((hugs))))))))))

  2. Know how you feel with the mom situation, it really sucks. I hope things get better, you do deserve a better life. Often parents screw things up for us and we can only see the dark side of things, but look on the bright side and don't believe anything against your own happiness, everyone deserves two things in life-
    Happiness, and a second chance.
    <3 Rosette