I can't bare to look at myself in the mirror any more, I'm huge. at 129 pounds I'm a fucking whale to myself.
I got an elliptical today so I'm deffinatly going to be on that ALOT.
I joined tap club at school - just watch my thighs jiggle alot..
I'm so ticked at myself for eating so much- my solution - get busy. Not bringing money or bank card to school and working out after school or sleeping.
I need to lost alot of weight. Maybe by semi formal? April something or other.
If I don't soon I don't know what I'll do.
Regardless of my pure self hatred I did have a good time with my friends tonight watching America's Next Top Model.
Tomorrow is dress down day - I have no idea what I am going to wear - I'm fat in everything so whats the point in trying.
oh sweetheart I'm sorry you're having such a shitty day x
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