December 25 2010

More Happy Christmas' everyone!
I hope everyone got what they wanted
I spent the day with my sister and her boyfriend and my dad taking funny pics then went back to my moms for dinner that I barley ate.
Last night wasn't so great and my phone broke :(
I got the Kat Von D Adora Case and Purfume! some money gift cards, earings and clothes.
For the next few day I'm going to my boyfriends house to have family Christmas stuff :) I love belonging with them.

Now for the real fun, new years needless to say there is a good chance of getting drunk :)

Happy Christmas Eve :)

Happy Christmas Eve everyone and I hope it really is happy!
My mom doesn't do much for christmas but that doesn't stop me from having my own little Christmas :)
I will cuddle up with coco and Christmas movies!
Tomorrow I get to soo my sister and I can't wait!!

Have amazing nights and Christmas Days or just a good day if you don't celebrate.

parents-ha

my parents shouldn't be called parents.

when I was small I was afraid to tell people what mother did to me because 1. I was just afraid she'd hurt me more and 2. I new they'd place me with my father and that scared me more for some reason that would be so hard to explain.
I grew up afraid and I still am afraid of what they can do to me.
I reach out to few maternal figures but I'm so afraid that if I connect with any they'll leave you know?
My parents hate each other and fight over everything  "usually me".
Tonight for example I was out of the house , the way I like it and when I got home my mother informs me my Dad had been calling threatning me for not calling him as usual and not being around and not being inside when he knew I was going to a friends, he was pissed, he was like fuck you merry christmas yadayada and then asks my mom for money which sets her on her anger towards him which turns to taking it out on me.
I hate being home...
How can I love me if my parents never did.

weekend over

I haven't posted pretty much because I've had strep throat and couldn't stay awake long enough to make a post!
Now I am feeling much better and only have some what of a cold-ish thing I shall post :)
I am ALMOST done Christmas shopping and I love love love wrapping presents so I'm having fun :) What shall Christmas have in store, well I get to see my sister who I never get to see so YAY and then I get to be with my mother -.-'.
Tomorrow I am finishing up my Christmas shopping with my boyfriend whom I'm going to have to shoo away at some point to get his gift!
I'm so glad its holidays but I still have holiday school work-ew but I won't think about that right now.
So I'm hovering at 119 right now since I have ended my fast and my liquid only diet due to strep throat :P
I want to lose more more more by Christmas and New Years.
I actually need to get in some better exersise though, winter is such a drag for out door running/ jogging.
Two pictures today! One is of a gift I wrapped and one if of a lovely picture i just like :)

Progress?

since my strep throat is keeping me awake i decided to take pics of me 3 days into my liquid fast. My stomach is discusting but its getting smaller..maybe.

I have strep throat D=

I went to the doctor today because my throat finally got so sore I just wanted to cry and couldn't even swallow my own spit! Turns out I have sever strep throat! Fail for me because I HATE having a sore throat. Plus side is I can't eat any food. But I am living off of soup and low cal hot chocolate :P I've now gotten to 119!! I can't believe I'm back into the teens but the sickness suuckkkss.
Down side is that I'm too sick to travel to see my brother so our plans got post-poned.
Stay strong beauties and pray for me to get better.

Day one of fast completed!

I made it through day one of my fast (with gum) !  I feel great!
Today  I woke up with a pain in my foot so bad I couldn't walk so I stayed home from school and slept!
I need to catch up on my homework but it'll be fine I hope.
It's only 8:40 but I think I will go to bed.
Here's hoping day two will be just as successful!!
I weighed in at 120 today!!! I can't believe I haven't seen that in a while but seriously I was 123 yesterday did 3 pounds just disapear? YAY
Love you beauties! <3
Pic: Kat Von D is seriously my idol shes a powerful women and a strong one! Her body is amazing and every tattoo is a part of her, I want one day to get tattooed by her! and I'm getting her tattoo chronicles for Christmas :)

here we go!

At the end of the day I weighed in at 123 and tomorrow I start my fast of only gum and diet coke and water. For the next four days I'll take pics and update my blog about my progress. Will we see a difference? I have no clue.
My day today was ok nothing special, babysat last night, I love babysitting.
hoping for a snowday tomorrow but it doesn't look like its going to happen. I guess its going to be a late night of homework I should have started.
Yes todays pic is of me at 123. What do you think? I know im fat.