middle day

I am not in school today and its the last week before March Break so I should be in school but I feel to fat and ugly and depressed to have even gotten out of bed this morning.
I slept for 11 hours and I'm still kinda sleepy. with me its either I sleep alot or I can't at all.
I hope everyone is having a good day. Post later <3
Love you all.

-- sleep needed.

I don't feel like updating my fingertips and burnin up page: I ate 500 calories and burnt 610.

I feel tired and sick and I want it to be friday.

            School sucked today, I feel like I want to disappear but of course I'm too fat.

cry + times are changin.

Fail day number two.
I feel like a fat ass and look like one to.
I ate so much!
and for some reason I feel more motivated than ever. This week is veggie and fruit only week.
I don't care and I'm not going to let anything stand in my way!
I want:
fake nails.
teeth whitening strips.
acne stuff.
Its make over time.
watch me shrink, I'm going to do it and I'm not going to stop.
I had pizza for dinner *barf* and my friend texts me this : " I had spagetti and garlic bread, it was balanced and healthy." I'm like 3-2-1- open guilt gates.

Sucky Saturday

Binge Day - no I don't want to talk about it you can see my failure in the fingertips section - I feel sick. I will stay under 400 all next week.
Went to boyfriends today - made me eat.
FML.

Friday alone

So school was good nothing much went on. My friends and I went to MacDonald together and I RESISTED TEMPTATION (from milkshakes and grill cheese -the only things I can eat there). I was great because I ate my grapes and broccoli with a diet coke while my friends chowed down. :)  I'd like to say restricting and exercising have been going well the past few days but I still feel like a fat ass. I added another page to my blog called burnin up to log my exercise so you an me can see if i've burnt off more than I ate ect.
Again if there are any other pages you want to see let me know I'm open to ideas!!
As far as my friday night I've done nothing productive :P I painted my face like David Bowie and took pictures xD
Stay lovely <3

Under the Covers

I bring you this blog update from insides a blanket.
I know I told myself I'd go to school today but I just couldn't bring myself to go =/. I feel depressed and I can't tell anyone so its "I'm not feeling well".
I have to go to school tomorrow because its my first day in my peer tutoring class and I have a philosophy test.
Blah I just feel so down =/
I can't bring myself to do anything.
Hugs for everyone who might be in the same boat.
My ed is also driving me nuts per usual its haunting me to exercise even though depression has drained me (I slept 14 hours too!) I can't eat over 500 cals or I'll just die.

Fat-be-gone

Sometimes I wish there was a magical button to make the fat go away but sadly there is not.
I created a new page on my blog (after half an hour of trying to figure out how!) Its called fingertips -no I'm not going to have a running theme with body parts I've seen that been done a few times so ya :P
Hopefully my pages will grow.
For now fingertips is were I am going to post what I eat everyday and how much I weigh. I need to keep track and I think if I have the thought that I'm going to post it then I'll eat less perhaps. But I promise if I eat like a cow I will post truthfully.
Why fingertips you ask? well I imagine most people use their hands to eat. :P not much creativity I know.
If you have any suggestions for other pages you want me to have let me know =D

As for my day? - I stayed home from school and slept and did homework :P

America's Next Top Model is on tonight :)

I'm trying

today I went crazy job hunting so I hope I get a job! I did get a few on the spot interviews so fingers crossed!
I'm so exaughsted its rediculous and I'm staying home from school tomorrow.
I exercised my ass of today with dance for 80 minutes, 3hrs of walking and some sit up for a total of 880 calories burned.
I ate fruits and veggies today!!!
:)
nothing much else to say because I am exhausted :P