Yay Friday?

It's Friday night and I am home alone and really quite sick. Coughing, sore throat, stuffy nose and head ache. So basically I'm eating (more like drinking) low cal soup and tea for my throat and spending lost of time on the computer listening to music, playing neopets and surfing facebook and pretty thin. I even have an online course I could be doing -.-'
School is actually going pretty well, I'm enjoying my new semester. Dance is the best and man am I getting a work out! We are learning a hip hop dance right now to bep boop by the black eye peas :) I love it.
Still no acceptances from university and I'm starting to get anxious.
For tomorrow? Sleep and maybe see the boyfriend ( he did such a good job at taking care of me today)
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I  want to sink in to the floor
Never to appear once more
Fade so thin
To places I've never been
Make my wishes come true
Let me tell the stories about how I once flew.
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I do quite like writing :)

*Aaaccchhooo*

ya I'm sick. I've worn myself thin and caught a cold that feels like so much worse because my body can't take it.
My mother is being unbelievable lately, insulting me and putting me down I'm like wow if you hate me so much then why did you keep me.
I start a new semester at school tomorrow and I am soooo not ready.
I have Peer Toutoring, Philosophy, Dance and Biology.
I don't really have much to say because I've been sick and avoiding home (I should start bringing my laptop with me).
Tomorrow I'm going to my dads after school.
Now I'm going to track down some binders and paper and dance clothes.
Good night

I'm a monster

I'm a monster
here me growl
I make you shake
I make you scream
I make you run hide and never dream
I'm a monster
Can you find me?
I'm deep inside your inner being.

Today was just blah, I cut. I have to study all night and I really need an energy drink so the verity store better stay open.
Moving my sister yesterday was fun and distracted me from eating and I worked off what I did eat.
Tomorrow is my last exam then two days off and a new semester begins.
This is me:

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I'm nothing but a fat fuck.

Bound for Toronto

Gooodmorning :P
thought I would post before I left for Toronto!
Helping my sister move is going to be hard work and I can't lift anything remotely heavy because I have no upper body strength once so ever.
It may be hard but I'm glad I at least get to see my sister!
Ok I've got to go get ready and wake the boyfriend up (he's gotten himself sick as of yesterday so I really hope he still wants to go this morning)
Have a great day beautifuls!

Exams you make me cry.

Sorry I haven't updated but I've been studying for my exams. So far I've had english (easy) and tomorrow I have sociology (cry.)
I'm going to be up all night studying. Blaaa.
So since I don't have anything to write about except the fact my skin is breaking out from stress and I'm eating more which this and stress make self injury worse I have a few links for you guys.

Do you read web  comics? I do. these are my two favorites.

http://questionablecontent.net/


http://www.girlswithslingshots.com/

Monday Magic

I woke up to nausea this morning and threw up a bunch lovely.
I dragged myself to school and wrote my english exam essay which I don't think went very well.
My friend got accepted into the university I wanted YAY but I'm a little anxious now pending my acceptance.

Tonight I watched Memoirs of a Geisha and fell in love with the beauty of the whole movie. Amazing music and senery and the story its self was so touching. A beauty hiding so much mystery. Sounds familiar
"Remember, Chiyo, geisha are not courtesans. And we are not wives. We sell our skills, not our bodies. We create another secret world, a place only of beauty. The very word "geisha" means artist and to be a geisha is to be judged as a moving work of art."
"She paints her face to hide her face. Her eyes are deep water. It is not for Geisha to want. It is not for geisha to feel. Geisha is an artist of the floating world. She dances, she sings. She entertains you, whatever you want. The rest is shadows, the rest is secret."
It is such a beautiful movie, I suggest you watch it.
Tomorrow I'm going to be skipping my classes.

goodbye as I listen to the soundtrack of my new found movie.

Sounds like Sunday

(I want to go roller skating)

I slept today.
I ate today.
I figured out some of my english today.
I will exersize today.
Today is Sunday.

Food Consumed.
Steemed Broccoli
Egg white omlete with red and green pepers
Potatoes
Fake chicken strips

Exersize
Doing this everyday:
100 jumping jacks
90 crunches
80 squats
70 leg lifts
60 jumping jacks
50 crunches
40 squats
30 leg lifts
20 jumping jacks
10 minutes of running

Tomorrow is dress down day at school! I'm a fat ass but I'm still going to dress up.